Self-Portraits....

I got a few good pictures of me and the dogs...

I think Chugs is doing the tongue roll in this picture, pretty good job, if I had known I would have done one too!
Texas smiling because she just came in from running around outside, she loves being outside and running around!
Not the best picture of Texas but I look better because I'm not so close to the camera!

Little Begger....

She is such a little begger!

Finally a post!

I have been wanting to post so bad and have so much to post on but I really wanted to see if anyone wanted to keep reading when I changed my address. I did it because I was afraid my in-laws might have found my blog, not only does it contain stuff about them and feelings that are not so nice but we currently don't have a good relationship with them (not talking, etc...) and I don't want them to know what is going on. I posted that story right?

Well let's start with a few things, but I just have to post cute dog pictures along the way because they are so cute! and well, my life! Last week was a good week health wise I haven't felt that good since before my last hospital visit! you forget how it feels to actually feel good! Now I'm not saying great just good but man oh man is it such an improvement! I had energy I wasn't tired all day long I wasn't in pain, it's hard to explain how my health is, now I still couldn't do much because I still have 10% lung capacity but at least I didn't feel crummy while doing nothing!

I need to look back and see how long it's been since I've posted, did I tell you I have a new nephew? He is so adorable I so wish I could be there with my sister, I want to hold him so bad! And the really sad thing is that I know I will not ever (unless a HUGE miracle happens) be able to go down a visit again! I'm so glad he is a good baby since I can't go down and help out, I was able to when my other nephew was born almost three years ago and it was so awesome so spend time with my niece (she will be 7 soon) and newborn nephew and help my sister out. But I just love little babies and want to hold him so bad!

So it's a good thing I've had good health, Monday night my husband sprained his ankle playing basketball!!!! So I'll tell you the story, he called me to tell me and I was mad, because you know I can't take care of him, I can't even take care of me! He takes care of me, him, the house, the dogs, everything! But by the time he got home (we are two blocks from the gym) I was so worried about him and I hate to see him in pain or suffering, funny how I have tons of health problems but even when he just has a little cold I can't take it! I can't stand to see him with a health problem, I'm so glad it's me with them and not him I can handle that more.

I have only seen one sprained ankle and that was my sister when we were young and I don't remember what it looked like just that she laid on the bed and propped her foot up with ice! so when I saw this and my husband said he thought it might be dislocated that is totally what you think when you see it I mean it wasn't swollen anywhere but right there and it looks like something is pushing out, so I made him go to the ER and my prayer was answered and it was only sprained! And also the next day he was walking on it!!! So he has had a nice swollen ankle all week (and still).


Here are my adorable, cute, awesome, sweet dogs, they love to snuggle me while I rest on the sofa.


Guess that's it for now I will be better at posting, I just love reading blogs though, I am glad that I have found that I have more readers, nice to know someone is reading, and I really hope I can somehow do good, lift someone's spirits or by sharing my life they can learn more about Cystic Fibrosis, but also that they will know that they can trust in their Heavenly Father and His plan for His children and that He is always here for us and helps us along the way.

Still want to read?

I am going to be changing my blog address if you would like to continue reading my blog (which I highly recommend) please let me know you are still interested and I'll let you know the new address.

*This is because of a personal contact not anyone in blog world.

I know I know you are sick of hearing that I have the cutest dogs in the whole entire world but truth is repeated over and over and over. Also got some of them snuggling me on the sofa while listening to some talks on the iPod.

Forgot the Link....

Here is the link for the card I made my mom, sorry I forgot the link in the original post...

What is with me?

What is with me these days? I totally don't feel like me, MH and I talked about it the other day and I know and he knows we have both seen it that my personality has changed over the past year, I don't laugh and joke as much as I use to, I had some quick wit about me I tell you, I also don't laugh or for that matter really cry! Mostly because I can't! I don't have the lung capacity to do it! I know it sounds weird but I can't cry because I can't breathe if I do! As for me I know I'm not as happy, optimistic, positive, go-go girl as I use to be, again because I can't, but it still is weird to see and recognize the change.

Also what else I've noticed and maybe I am experiencing some depression I don't know, but I have some really downer days and if I have a couple in a row I get worse and really think that this is the way it will be or that I am definately going to die within a week, take the last few days for example, I have had no energy, zero, zilch, I've had a hard time breathing, it's been very hard for me, I guess I forget that I might get better, I think I'm losing that hope that I can or might get a little better, or at least have better days, I need to hope and look forward to better days, but I just get in such a slump and I don't know how to describe it, but today was a better day and I feel so different! I took a shower, I'm not as tired, it makes my attitude better, what a difference! I can have a good day, I need to remember that.

I don't really know the purpose of this post or that it even makes sense, I can't make sense of these thoughts and feelings so I thought I would try and type them up but I don't think it's helping. I have a strong testimony and maybe that is just being tested right now, but I also can't deny the fact that my health is very poor and I can't do pretty much everything I was able to do! Seriously, I just want to finish a cross-stitch for my newly born nephew (yesterday, congrats sister!) and I love to cross-stitch (those who read my blog at the beginning know) but I can't seem to have the energy to do even that!!!!! It makes me so sad. I can't take the dogs outside anymore that is too much work, I basically go to the bathroom and back!

Also for any friends that read this that live close to me I am also asking for help, I thought I would never ever do this in my life but I need help, we are getting a few dinners a week from our ward but only a couple times a week, if it is left up to MH to come up with dinners the rest of the time we all know how that is, it puts more stress on me because I have to think of the dinner, make a grocery list, and probably tell him how to cook it, he is good at the bbq but not in the kitchen, so if anyone would be willing to bring us a dinner every now and then we would greatly appreciate it, and even if you just put some extra away in your freezer and then bring that we totally love reheating stuff.

Thanks so much, from a very humbled RoRo, email me if you can help me, roroshere{at}gmail{dot}com.